I can't believe four whole years have passed by since my mom died. 2005 was a dark year. Although I can't say I had a ton of time to sit and grieve her passing all at once. It has taken these years to fit in my thoughts and tears and remembering of her. I know she wasn't a happy happy, life's a party kind of girl and so I have been trying to overwrite those impressions I have of her with memories that were good. I want to remember her for the good things she did for her friends and her family; for how much she loved her own mother; her great taste in many things; how much she cared for my children who didn't judge her the way I did; how she loved a great mystery; how she refused to be bamboozled out of even .50 cents if she believed she was right; how she stood by so many lost causes without falter because she believed it was the only thing to do.
At some point during her last year, in the middle of the night, the radio in Abby and Alyssa's room started blaring a song by Train. Every time I hear it I think of her and I try not to miss her because I know she believed in angels. I hope she made it that far.
"I won't give up if you don't give up."
This is a very nice tribute to you Mom. I should call mine. As bat-shit-crazy as she is, she is mine and I love her.
Love you, too!
Posted by: Lisa Jane | April 18, 2009 at 09:28 AM
As Lisa said ,, and very nice tribute to your Mom. But I will add ,,, it is ok to miss her!!!
xoxo
Posted by: Toni | April 18, 2009 at 01:35 PM